It's been a crazy month, but I'm surviving and just trying to figure out life. I've gone through many stages of post-mission-call-itis, the most major ones being the "is this even real?" phase , "oh my gosh this is too real I don't think I can do this" phase, the "this is going to be the best experience ever" phase, and the "I'm not ready, I don't think I ever will be" phase, and let's not forget the others, "I'm going to die of dengue fever", "I LOVE mission shopping", "I HATE mission shopping", "I'm gonna have to eat a goat colon, aren't I?" and "I can't wait to get going".
Honestly, though, I've been struggling the past month. I feel like ever since I got my mission call, I've been in a rut. I've barely opened my scriptures, hardly prayed, I haven't had the desire to serve others, I don't want to talk to people, and I've pretty much stayed in the house most of the time. I just have no drive, no want to be productive.
So this will end today! I'm going to read and study like it's nobody's business, I'm going to pray to my Father in Heaven like crazy. I will force myself to be social and go out of my way to talk to people, and will finish the service projects I started at the beginning of summer. It's going to be great!
I have a testimony that the Lord does help us do what we are meant to do, that He cares about our well-being and wants us to succeed. Keep moving forward. Be positive. Stay awesome, my friends.
HOLLEY STRINGHAM: Salt Lake City, born and raised; returned missionary from the Indonesia Jakarta Mission.; a simple folk aimed on changing the world